they say...have a little faith

 

Cant believe how much faith my frends have in me... 
they see things that I only dream of...
I see an insecure mind and body...
where they see confident and secure 
I see the negative...
where they see the positive
I see failure...
where they see success

Thank you for having faith in me.....
Thankfully.... I do have faith in The Lord

so I've tried counting to 10..and another...and another

  1..2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10..........10...9...8.. really...like thats really gonna help

Being quite a positive person ( Im even questioning that at the moment !!)

the reality that I am being backed into a corner, with absolutely no where to go, is to say the least, excruciating....

It dosnt help that its the wrong time of the month!!!!!!

And there's more...I know that if I say what I want to , it will only make things 50 times worse...

inside I am screaming!!!!