funny kind of week

beautiful spring morning...and I'm wide awake at 3am
which allows me time to ponder on the last couple of weeks....
its fair to say that they have been full of mixed emotions...
good ..bad..and in between

new jobs tend to do this to me...I get stressed and cant sleep

which inevitably leaves me a bit fragile and emotional

     (photo by Chardonnay)  

then add another adorable  grandchild into the mix...
and the emotional roller coaster speeds up...

and just for good measure...7 family birthdays in the last 2 months!!!
emotional roller coaster overload... but in a nice way                                                                                                                   

and there's more.....3 bank holidays    

and its at these times that my past always has a way of seeping into my thought path...

needless to say it also reminds me of how truly blessed I am...
and that each individual blog is just a fraction of my very beautiful life

                                            ( photo by Chardonnay  )                                               

Thank the Lord for my life

wow..roller coaster of a week...it started with a kiss

It started with a kiss.....well no not really.... it started with a CV
and that was a week ago....
( I saw a nice li'l part time position advertised and quickly sent my cv across) not really expecting a reply
but a li'l later that day  I recieved a call inviting me to an interview with the recruitment agency
  ( yeah thats kind of what I thought...a ploy to get another member on their books )
And the inerview was arranged for the same day!!!   I was in shock
For all intents and purposes it seemed a very positive meeting...staff were all really friendly 
They assured me they would be in touch.. ( i didnt hold my breath )
It was about 3 days after when I got another call from the agency saying they had secured me an interview with the company!!  Yes once again I was in shock...deeper shock!!
She advised me to research the company and prep well ( which I did)
I was the 1st on the list for interview...9am...I arrived at 8.30!!! ( well Id been up since 3am!! )
waited outside for a while ( didnt want to appear over eager!! lol )
Once again the interview went very well ...had a really good rapport with the company receptionist ( which would be the position I would be sharing)
And things just seemed to get better...meeting with PA  seemed very positive ( I didnt want to hope for too much and told myself... 'It was good practice to have lots of interviews... even if I didnt get the job!!'
She said she had interviews all day and also one next week.....
I came out and sighed a big sigh of relief... I did my best and its now in the lap of the Gods
The recruitment agency contacted me to ask how it went   and I assured them I'd done my best...
So yes long weekend .. wandering...doubting...planning..
And as promised I was contacted on the Monday...
Imagine my surprise...shock...amazement...excitement when she told me they wanted to offer me the job..... I couldnt stop thanking the woman from the agency...who assured me how very pleased they were too have me on board  ( well you could of knocked me down with a feather )
I feel very humbled to have the chance at another job at my age (54)
so needless to say lots of prayers offered today ( as always)

when you just know

So its been 3 days this week at my new job...and this is the end of my 2nd week!!!
to be perfectly honest, I dont know how I lasted this long....
And there's more
Yesterday was my 1st day visiting the patients at home on my own... and yes its fair to say its not my 'cup of tea' (another one of my sayings..... an example of an english idiom... If something is not your cup of tea, you don't like it or you are not interested in it. )
And there's more....according to my boss, yesterday was an easy day!!!!  should get an early finish.... 'errr no'
( depends if you are prepared to go in/out without spending any time with these vunerable people I suppose )
These dear, mainly old people just want the same as the rest of us...a little bit of company, and compassion, someone to be kind to them and give them a little bit of time, a smile.... this job definitly does not allow for that.... 
so a visit that should take 15 mins at most ( as suggested by my boss) is taking me over 30 mins...so that dosnt take much calculating to see why I had a late day!!!

so the time has come to make a decision.... 

• do I need this job financially/for personal reasons
• do I need the stress
• realisitically am I going to get the training that i have been promised..or should i accept the truth that it is too late to train for a new career
• should I give it it a longer trial
• am I ever going to enjoy this type of job
• am I going to regret giving up too soon
• what am I trying to prove to myelf
• No time to do the things I love doing..cycling/fitness classes... mainly because Im nakered ( emotionally mostly )

So many decisions... and to top it off I have a really bad head cold..( and no I wouldnt dream of saying Ive got it from one of my lovly patients  

hi there....

Update...Yes there's more  

Another month has gone by?????
U can not be serious 

Its fair to say that I am still enjoying the job 
That is when the boss is not there !!!

Missing blogging tho....no time...too tired....lol 
I gonna try harder......( my boss says.. yes...but not hard enuf !!! )
Pftttttt   

Cant believe its been 4 months tho....(time flies wen u r enjoying yeself!!!!   lol )
Still not got to grips with everything i have to do...( I've told u...its my age!!!   But I'm definitley better than wot I thought I was gonna be....)

Better today than I was last week

and I intend to be better next week 

than what i am today

Wish me luck

And the thought of that nice glass of vino when I finish work is definitley a good incentive to get through the day....

So here's wishing u goodnight n Godbless...sweet dreamzzzzzzz