feeling distraught/helpless

This happened when I had a new phone...
I hear you say....
'how can that possibly make you feel distraught' 
Its actually the consequence of moving all my information, pictures,messages etc from my old to my new phone..... simple right?

to be fair its when we rely on modern technology too much, we trust that it will look after and care for all our precious information like we would ( or should I say we should )😒

But at the end of the day its just devices with a list of instructions...and like technology... can often break down or not work as it should
 The result in this particular instance were ...for me.. awful, to say the least

Most things transferred very well ..its fair to say..

One thing that didnt  was watsapp, and for anyone that has it, you will probably realise how precious this is
'Keep in touch with the groups of people that matter the most, like your family or coworkers. With group chats, you can share messages, photos, and videos with up to 256 people at once. You can also name your group, mute or customize notifications, and more.'

When your frends and family are having a rough time a comforting message or picture or emoji can be a tower of strength... and its a perfect way to keep in touch with a funny or quirky status...
so when I realised that watsapp hadnt transferred, Initially I thought It was just a blip and I could get all messages back
No ..I soon realised that they were all gone...forever
conversation.. pics... gone...my frends gone and so av her conversations
the deep meaningful conversations had with loved ones...who are for one resaon or another no longer in our lives...
yes the pain can run very deep indeed...
one of the worst thing is chats pics etc of my beautiful frend who sadly is no longer with us..💔
so yes its true to say I was devastated, very sad, and Helpless..yes because I knew there was nothing I could do about it!!!!!💔

Assumption ...(a thing that is accepted as true or as certain to happen, without proof.)

we assume..its safe there...it will transfer..so dont check...so dont ask...it could be put right 
Unfortunately a life lesson I didnt want to learn.
What it has learnt me is

 back up...   back up...   and back up  

and then 

BACK UP

(any thing that is precious to you..treat it like you would anything of value....take care of it..protect it )

on that note ..dont misunderstand me...I think technology is amazing ... but i need to remember that technology is just that... and I need to remember to think for myself and ask the question!!!!!

I hope I learn from it and dont just ASSUME everything will be alright😞

so the count down has begun

So there is less than a day left of 2016 left......

And we have left a lot of truly beautiful people in 2016...

we cant change what has been....we cant hide what we've seen

(and why would we want to )

because everything is part of our journey, some good some not so.....take with you what you need and leave the rest in 2016

and these are just some of the memories i want to bring with ME

Always be kind..it dosnt cost anything.. to strangers as well as your family ...simple things like kindness..smiles..hugs ..you dont need to be a millionaire to give these wonderful gifts in abundance and it you can be richer beyond belief when you recieve them

Always be grateful....when you wake each new day be grateful...

have fun...smile laugh enjoy the company of friends and family...life is short..enjoy it

  

Happy New Year to You and Yours..Thank you for sharing 2016 with me

.wishing you every blessing that God has to offer

praying that 2017 is the best year yet for all of us

love and best wishes

Bazzaar what our brain remembers!!!!

Strange memories.....and whats even stranger is that they can be woken at the most unexpected time

I can remember being one of the children in school who had very little by way of clothes and toys etc
I cant really remember what age i would of been but i'm guessing about 7 years.

Strangely enough i cant ever remember this bothering me too much, I had a strong personality....and i could speak up for myself... I was in the tufty club!!! 

Sure i can remember thinking how all the other kids ( especially the girls ) looked great...smart, clean, pressed clothes, nice coats and shoes. Their hair was clean tied back with a nice ribbon or clip....but no cant remember it bothering me

Hell...i even used to stand in the cloakroom at home time and help all the li'l posh kidz put on their coats and help em button em up...well that was the closest i was ever gonna get to a new coat!!! lol

The teachers used to tell my Mam i was like a little mother to all the rest of the kidz.....home from home  (i would look after my siblings at home so why should school be any different )

So when you are all grown up with grown up kids of your own, the last thing you expect to be reminded of is a wollen skirt and junper you once wore.

But sure enough, whilst browsing in the art and craft section of beatties one day, i was met with a very familiar sight...a blast from the past....it was the weirdest feeling....the strangest sensation...not scary at all....suprisingly happy and proud

....It was an old fashioned knitting pattern of a pleated skirt and jumper with scotty dogs on....

This memory was from along time ago...... from inside a box where the lid had been shut and locked for more years than i care to remember  

I could only of been 4 and i'm guessing i was still living with both my Mam and Dad and brother and beautiful younger sister.  I remember clearly that we had matching ones just different colours, and that they were skillfully and lovingly knitted by my Mam, ( this was would of been before her wild side got itchy feet again)And yes it made me smile....I remembered how the soft baby wool felt, how it fitted snugly, and how it felt warm....or may be this was one of the few times in my life that i actually felt loved and safe......Hey...who knows......may b just my memory playing tricks on me

Wow all this from an old Pattern......

Emotional Shit .......

So every now and again something jumps up out of the blue.....and ye past comes flooding back......

and tonight its LONG LOST FAMILIES!!!!

so sad...so lost...and yet so happy to b reunited...belonging to someone, somewhere....

another time it can be a smell....a certain perfume mostly....funnily enuf 

how weird is that?   something so ordinary and  yet so personal to b able to cunjure up vivid memories...sounds, feelings as clear as if u were stil  right there!!!!   An opportunity to return to the past ....amazin from a smell !!!!!!

and theres more....

Because as sure as night follows day.....the deja vue has gone    C'est la vie.....        til the next time...........