what an eye opener

so today was my 1st day of my new job.....  

And yes i was shocked...anxious...surprised...nervous....concerned....sad

my job involves visiting people in their homes....vunerable...needy people
most of whom are either elderly or disabled or who have learning disabilities

these poor people want the same as the rest of us...just a li'l understanding... companionshhip..love...to enjoy life...to be valued

I think I have been walking round blind for the last 50 years..the realisation that these needy vunerable people are so near and in such abundance has really shocked me....

call me nieve...ignorant or stupid!!!

I dont know wether I would class myself as blessed by the fact that I have no real contact with these people...I do not really have any contact with old friends or relatives and the few that I do know are pretty abled and fortunate to say the least. 

And to be fair I dont know how I feel about it...obviously I know that these people exist but to be in close contact as I have today has really been an eye opener  
(the old people that i do know are from my old job where they were able to walk in store unaided..talk about planned holidays ..shopping trips...etc  )
Not only the people have shocked me ( not really sure if shocked is the right word...saddened me ) but I am in awe of the people who look after them...seemingly unselfish individuals... 

Not really sure if this is the job for me................................may be I just prefer to bury my head in the sand.....and pretend that every one is able bodied and mind ....and not in need of  constant care

over thinking...instead of drinking

So one more sleep...
until the first day of my new job, that is

and yes for the last couple of weeks  ( since I knew I had got it )  I can say that i have seriously over thought each and evewhich has resulted in me having dreams about situations that I dont know nothing about...
And there's more
If that sounds confusing to you ...imagine how I feel !!!!

I am of course feeling excited, nervous, unsure, elated, anxious....I'm guessing thats how every one feels when they are going into a new situation...
but I can remember feeling exactly the same starting my previous job  ( cant believe that was may 2015 !!! ) 
but, its time for a change
 And there's more...in my old job those feelings didnt change much for the whole time I was there..I do believe I felt the same the day I left!!!!  ( due mainly to the owners...but thats another blog )

Lets hope that is not the case with this job.....

You would think at my ripe old age that I would be more relaxed about things...but alas...no thats not the case

On the positive side I have had a lovly day... busy with my family

Wish me luck

such a shame

so we live in an amazing country with so many opportunities for our youngsters...or so we are told

so why is it that our youngsters ( boys and girls ) feel the need to ( as seen on 

Good Morning Britain | GMB - ITV.com )

• take dozens of selfies to examine before they go out each morning...and post these on social media
• admit to wanting cosmetic surgery before they even get into double figures! 
• youngsters often isolate themselves because of body image anxiety.
• wont go swimming because they are not happy with their body

Our youngsters are obsessed with stars that look perfected in every picture

It is a very sad world we live in for a lot of kids today....God only knows how they will feel and what lengths they will go to when the real wrinkles start to appear!!!

in the words of Susanna Reid......

I say embrace the unfiltered picture

Susan reid posted her picture as she looks before she goes on sset and also one after the make up team have done their work !!!

( and 99 % of stars / celebritys go through a similar regime before they are seen in public )

Well done Susanna....

May be if more stars would copy Susanna s lead then more kids could see that nobody is perfect and that all the stars get a lot of help to look the way they do